It a lonely feeling when you have so much on your mind with so many people around and you have no one to talk to

I have felt the calling of ministry in my heart for a long time and I regretably ignored it. But now the calling seems so loud and so strong that I can't ignore it anymore. Unfortunately the devil is trying to stop me by making the schooling I need to pursue my calling financially unattainable... Does anyone have any suggestions or resources or know of any scholarships or financial assistance programs to help me pursue the path God is calling me for?

I became a brand ambassador for a company called Gospel Gear. They sell several different items such as t-shirts, bible accessories, and other cute items that are GREAT gift ideas and VERY reasonably priced. Please check it out... I DO MAKE A 10% COMMISSION OFF OF ALL ORDERS. And if anyone wants to become a brand ambassador like me please let me know and I will send you my referral link... Thanks and have a blessed day!!!! https://gospelgearcompany.com?ta_aff=FGLSQEUD6A

My favorite Bible verse is... 2 Corinthians 12:9 "Every weakness you have is an opportunity for God to show His strength in your life"