Hi I haven't been a born again Christian long but I have been saved before but I'm lost my way I mean I fell of the deep end alcohol abuse cheating on my to the point that I almost left her for another woman in 2023 I found my way back home and gradually back to my Lord God and saviour I and for a while I stop drinking and smoking but the a week B4 me and my wife had a car accident I started smoking again and I almost lost everything again when I had a drink with friends I almost fell into that trap again until my Ps gave me some stearn words. But through all this I never really made that true connection with God because evertime I closed my eyes to worship I would see these images of my past and the things I have done I would see naked woman and things like that and that made not worship the way I wanted to it was difficult because evertime I want to connect with God I couldn't and recently I started having doubts if God is really by my side if he can hear me when I'm praying is He lestining to me van he actually hear my prayers and it's frustrating to have these questions because I know God is omnipresent and he knows what we want even before we ask for it. Basically what I am trying to say is I am struggling to connect with God and I am struggling to go into the holy place where he is and it's really frustrating coz I want to be where he is I want to be close to him I want to feel him close to me. WHAT CAN I DO I NEED HELP