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Everything sucks, but I have Jesus.

After doing some praying and hearing from fellow close brothers, I’m considering getting back into ministry. I was serving in youth ministry and back in June, I took a break from serving in order to prioritize my mental health with the intention of returning. Gonna be meeting with my church’s youth and senior pastors this Sunday after service, most likely to discuss where I’m at mentally and spiritually right now and how we can proceed accordingly.

Hope everyone is doing well. I know I haven’t posted in some time.

I recently opened up about having severe depression. I didn’t share everything that’s been going on at the time, so I wanted to share a little more of what’s been happening.

I’ve been coping with a break up that happened a few months ago, and since then, I haven’t been the same. It’s hard to have any joy when everyone else around me does. It’s harder when I’m also seeing friends and family members getting engaged or married all around the same time.

It really sucks. I went through so much heartbreaks, including this one. I’m at a point where I just don’t believe in love anymore, and to watch other people be blessed to have that in their own lives while I suffer is hard to bear. I’ve been told way too many times that I will “find the right one”, or that God will “send me the right one”, but it’s become so laughable now.

There’s so much more I wanna share, but this all I will leave you for now. I just ask that you continue to pray for me.

Just because I’m a Christian, doesn’t mean that everyday is going to be a good day, so it’s okay to not be okay.

It’s okay to feel upset. It’s okay to feel sad. It’s okay to feel angry. It’s okay to not feel happy when everyone else is. We’re not robots. We’re not programmed to feel a certain way. We’re emotional beings and we were designed that way. Even God expresses emotions.

It’s okay to weep because Jesus wept. It’s okay to feel anxious because Jesus was anxious too. It’s okay to be angry because Jesus was also angry at one point. Don’t ever let anyone shame you for having bad days, because even Jesus had bad days.

Lord…help me to let go of resentment towards those who hurt me. Help me to forgive them the way you forgave me. Help lift the heaviness in my heart so that I can rest. Help mend the brokenness in my heart.

I feel like I’m at the deep end now… #depression #forgiveness #hope

Not sure if anyone will see this…but I could use some prayer…I’m dealing with severe depression…I am getting help, but I’m struggling still.