My mind is at sail as the boats of the harbor.... Dear God....help me. I have watched and seen that the fruits of labor are good...
I have seen the beauty that you have bestowed before me and the richness of your kind glory…
But what I do not understand is the labor of love. How much work it takes for the very corner of the fabric of your tapestry of the world to be perfected in such a short time as at hand.
I long for the perfect love of two that gather on the beach to be as great as the love that you have for me, Your love for me Oh God is beyond what is imagined…..in this life or the life that is to come.
Just when I think I have found that love that can carry me to the end of this life until I may enter in your perfect presence, I am totally amazed that it is nothing compared to the teardrop of knowing that no one can love me as you.
While I long for a male to watch over me and to lead me to all paths that you would like for him to direct, I know that only you are my true love and my only leader in times of whatever this life has to bring. I pray oh God that someday you would see fit to share me with the one soulmate of your choosing that would bring some sort of emotional happiness that I have not yet experienced, for your Glory.
Oh God, for the one that I thought maybe pleasing to you is just another filthy rag.
Please help me to understand what it is that you have for me.
May 10, 2016

mention my name in your prayers please.