You must repent of your sin: long held sin against GOD from the curse you were born into, to lead a life of sin . Admit you need a SAVIOUR . Surrender to ME as that SAVIOUR. Tell me you desire to be filled with MY SPIRIT . Disown your own will and request to be in the Will of THE FATHER. Ask to be baptized in MY HOLY SPIRIT and come learn of ME through MY WORD and through a relationship with ME. Talk to ME all through the day. This is how it's was meant to be before men fell away.