I HAVE FAITH AND PATIENCE BUT EVEN WITH THIS IM BECOMING MORE AND MORE USELESS AND FUNNY I CAN FEEL IT

My life is just one fully packed film of confusion. At one point everything is just blossoming and then boom all hell breaks loose no job, separation with wife, cant afford to take care of my children and l end up turning into a real drinker this pushes again opportunities and family members away .As l try to change things l drown more and people all they see is negativity surrounding me nothing positive .l have started going to services time and again but its not truly helping cause when they start to push for auto change an opportunity of confusion or beer appears and boom back to zero.