This time of year always has been difficult for me for several reasons. It is also the saddest time of the year as when the world celebrate Xmas I think back on how Jesus died for me and tha pain he endured and suffered for my sins. Then I realize the world uses this time for financial gain by means of presents and holiday destination specials. Every year on Xmas day I am alone, not family to celebrate with as my kids have their own plans and as kids mostly spend it with their father. So being alone all these years caused some scars and emotional wounds. So when I realized that another Xmas day is coming I decided to do something this year. I have joined an outreach group to go and teach the Gospel to kids and people who suffered the same fate I did in my life. This year I am going to spend Xmas with those who needs to hear how big our Father's haert is!