[I don't know what to do with this.]

So when I was younger I used to write a lot. Whether it's fanfictions for my friends or just stories I myself came up with, but I used to write. As I grew older I lost my spark and stopped writing.

It's no secret that we all have a past. I'm gonna come clean and say that my past includes abandonment and a lot of assault and harassment. Including (almost-) abortion. (It was a false pregnancy.) I found God in the most heartbreaking way and he changed me to who I am today.

Earlier this week something told me to write a book, create my own characters and write a story about how this character has the same struggles and past as me and make her find her way to God. Basically a story book about my life.

I'm so scared because what if it isn't good and what if I can't write anymore or my creativity is gone? But then I reminded myself that it's satan trying to interfere with my calling. I know I need to do this.. I know this is something I can do.

I was just wondering if anyone here would be interested in reading my book if I chose to publish one and if anyone could give me tips and help me with the process.