This is why I act the way I have always done. I understand these verses. I am not the one to be considered special, Jesus is.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10 NKJV Jesus speaking And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, For my strength is made is made perfect in weakness.”
Therefore most gladly I will rather boost in my infirmities, that the person of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecuting, in distress, for Christ's sake, For when I am weak, then I am strong.