Being utterly alone in a walk no one can understand or see is grueling and every step takes everything you have to not cave into the pit that the fallen are trying hard to trip you into and manipulate you into. The mental anguish is heavy. The blanketed weight is so hard to even drag around. In these present times, you can be surrounded by folk who pride themselves on the appearance of "Christianity" but void of the character markings of Jesus Christ. Recognition and Popularity are the sign of the times and the deep rooted egoism is only branching out. God, save me from myself. I beg of your divine ax to lay its blade to root or shaft that is within me and would cause me to stumble and blind myself so much so that would lead my direction into darkness and blind my spiritual eyes to not even see that I'm doing so. Lay your ax to the root of any sliver of self righteousness or such low self esteem that jealousy would give way to a door that the evil ones use to divide but let me understand the difference between pride and your authority within me. Let me be kind to others even if they are mean, ugly and rude especially, the ones calling themselves followers of your word. Let me rise up again and walk with your name saturated in my entire existence. Amen