I'm struggling with anger, sadness and unforgiveness because of my mother. A couple of months ago she told me for the hundredth time she didn't love me and I've always done something to make her dislike me. From the time I was an infant to 62 years of age I've been a horrible person according to her. I took myself to church at 4, I made stash A's and B's, my teachers and neighbors loved me, I have always been the person God said to be. My mother has abused me in every way,, she's talked about me to the people who respected me, like the police cheif and officers, she told them I was on drugs and not to trust me, she reported me to children family services so much they were going to file charges against her, she tried to take my child away from me, she moved her father into her home that had molested my siblings, cousins, myself and only God knows who else, she tried to keep me from going to college by taking my car away over asking for $30 to help with my loan. She's told me that she was going to get an abortion with me, that she didn't want any of her kids but most of all me. She's been cruel my whole life and damaging to my soul. I've tried to by the daughter Hod said to be but I can't anymore. She had me ready to kill myself 2 months ago and I can't live like that. I've cut her out of my life. But I feel bad that I've disappointed God. please pray for me. My health is awful, my home is falling apart and I am beyond btoke.I was injured on the job where I broke my neck and back and can't work or fix my home. I need help. And I don't ask for help because I have been rejected from birth and learned to take care of myself. Please, pray for me. I know God loves me but life is really hard right now.