What does it feel like to be lost?You believe in God. You grew up around faith. You know the verses, the songs, the language. But somewhere along the way, something stopped feeling real.Maybe you drifted — slowly, quietly, without ever deciding to. Maybe you ran, deliberately, because you believed the lie that He didn't love you, or that it was too late to come back. Maybe you're still in church every Sunday but you feel like a stranger in your own faith — going through motions that used to mean something.You are not alone. Almost everyone who has ever loved God has also, at some point, felt completely lost to Him. The difference is that most people never see that journey written down — honestly, without performance, without pretending it was easier than it was.Diary of a Son — Book of Mysteries is a raw, intimate collection of psalms, diary entries, and love letters — written from inside that exact journey. Not as a sermon looking down at you, but as a diary written by someone who lived every page of it first.This is not a theology textbook. It is not a 40-day devotional with neat daily prompts. It is something more honest — a real account of running, being lost, being found, and being sent back into the world changed. Written in plain, direct, deeply personal language, structured across three books that mirror the actual shape of a spiritual return.WHAT'S INSIDE — THREE BOOKS— Book One — Prodigal Son: Running away. Getting lost. The warmth of an embrace you thought you'd never deserve again. Written as psalms between the son and the Father.— Book Two — The Journey: Being sent back into the world. The betrayals, the cold, the belly of the fish — and the slow discovery that the Book you were given is a map, a compass, and a sword, all at once.— Book Three — Book of Mysteries: The deep end. Grace, war, royalty, injustice, dreams, and the return of the King. Raw, unfiltered, and addressed directly to you.WHO THIS IS FORThis book is for you if:— You have ever felt too far gone to come back to God— You are tired of religious performance and want a real encounter— You sense there is something more to your faith but can't name it yet— You are walking through betrayal, loss, or spiritual wilderness right now— You have tried church, tried religion, and found it hollow — but you still believe— You want to read something that doesn't talk down to you about faithWHAT MAKES THIS DIFFERENTUnlike generic devotionals, this book:— Was written as a real diary during an actual season of being lost — not as a curriculum— Lets both voices speak — the son's confessions and the Father's responses, side by side— Covers the entire arc of return, not just isolated daily reflections— Uses raw, sometimes uncomfortable honesty instead of polished religious language— Is meant to be read slowly, one entry at a time — not consumed in a single sitting