PART 1: “I Killed 40+ Christians as a Doctor”: Muslim Doctor’s Secret Poisoning Christian Patients.
My name is Fatima Alman. I was a murderer who wore a white coat instead of a mask.
I killed not in dark alleys but in sterile hospital rooms. I ended lives not with bullets but with medications. Not with violence but with what everyone believed was mercy and healing. And I did it all believing I was serving Allah.
There are some secrets that hospitals keep in their halls that no medical textbook will ever record. Some hands that heal by day become instruments of death by night. And sometimes the person you trust most with your life is the one planning to take it.
What I’m about to tell you changed everything I thought I knew about good and evil, about redemption and justice, about whether someone can come back from becoming a monster. Stay with me because this story will disturb you, break you, and maybe, just maybe, heal something inside you that you didn’t know was wounded.
I was 29 years old when my world collapsed. When everything I believed shattered like glass. When I discovered that the person I thought was righteous was actually the villain in every story I’d ever been part of.
I grew up in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia, in a family that most people would have called devout. From the time I was a small girl, I heard the same messages repeated like prayers: that unbelievers were a disease on this earth, that Christians and Jews were the greatest enemies of Allah, that killing them was not murder but justice, not sin but righteousness.
My father told me that paradise had levels and the highest levels were reserved for those who fought for Islam. He explained that jihad didn’t always mean carrying weapons in obvious ways. He said that sometimes the greatest warriors were those who fought from positions no one would suspect. He told me that if I became a doctor, I could serve Allah in ways that others couldn’t imagine.
I believed him. Every word.
I studied hard, earned top marks, got accepted into medical school at University Malaya. I took the Hippocratic Oath with my classmates, promising to do no harm, to treat all patients with equal care, to preserve life above all else. I spoke those words with my mouth while my heart held completely different intentions. To me, that oath applied only to Muslims. Christians and other infidels didn’t deserve the same protections. They were enemies. And in war, you didn’t heal your enemies. You eliminated them.
After I completed my residency, I started working at one of the major government hospitals in Kuala Lumpur. That’s where I met them—the others like me.
Dr. Hassan introduced me during my second week. He told me about a group of Muslim healthcare workers who met regularly, who shared a common understanding of our true purpose in the medical field. The first meeting shocked me, not because of what they were doing, but because I’d found my people—others who understood.
There were six of us initially: three doctors, two nurses, and a pharmacist. We met in Dr. Hassan’s apartment once a month. We shared meals, prayed together, and then we talked about our work.
Dr. Hassan opened that first meeting by asking each person to share their recent victories. I listened as a nurse named Aisha described how she’d deliberately given wrong medication to a Christian patient recovering from surgery. She told us how the patient had developed complications and died within 48 hours. She smiled as she said this, and everyone else nodded with approval.
A doctor named Kareem shared how he’d misdiagnosed a Christian businessman, sending him home with painkillers when the man actually had appendicitis. The man died from a ruptured appendix three days later.
They went around the circle sharing stories of Christians who died under their care. Wrong medications, deliberate overdoses, treatments withheld, diagnostic errors that weren’t errors at all. Each story ended the same way—with death—and with the group celebrating another victory for Islam.
When it came to my turn, I felt embarrassed that I had nothing to share yet. But Dr. Hassan placed his hand on my shoulder and told me not to worry. He said that Allah had brought me to them for a purpose, and soon I would have my own victories to report.
He explained that what we were doing was true jihad, that we were fighting on the front lines of a war most Muslims didn’t even know was happening. He reminded us that the Prophet himself had commanded believers to fight against unbelievers, and that our method was simply more sophisticated than previous generations.
I went home that night feeling something I hadn’t felt in years. Purpose. I had found my calling. I would be a warrior for Islam, and no one would ever suspect the young female doctor with a kind smile and gentle hands.
My first victim came two weeks later.
Her name was Sarah Tan. She was a 34-year-old marketing executive at a multinational company. She’d come in for a routine gallbladder surgery—something we performed dozens of times each month without complications.
She was Christian. I saw the small cross necklace she wore. I heard her thank Jesus when I told her the procedure would be straightforward. That cross made my decision easy.
After her surgery, I was assigned to manage her post-operative care. Everything had gone smoothly during the procedure. She should have recovered normally and gone home within three days. But I adjusted her medication dosage, increasing her pain medication to levels that I knew would suppress her respiratory system. I did it gradually over the course of 18 hours so it would look like a natural complication.
I was in the room when she died. I watched her oxygen levels drop, watched her breathing become shallow, watched the monitor flatline. The attending physician rushed in, tried to resuscitate her, but it was too late. He turned to me with confusion in his eyes and asked what had happened. I told him I didn’t know, that she’d seemed fine, that perhaps she’d had an undetected underlying condition.
Her husband arrived an hour later. He collapsed when we told him his wife was gone. He kept asking how this could happen, saying she’d only come in for a simple procedure, saying she’d texted him that morning telling him she felt fine. I stood there in my white coat, my face arranged in professional sympathy, and told him that sometimes complications arose that no one could predict. I told him we’d done everything we could.
I felt no guilt. None at all. Instead, I felt satisfaction. I’d struck a blow for Islam. I’d removed one more Christian from the earth.
That night, I performed my prayers with extra devotion. I thanked Allah for allowing me to serve him. I asked for more opportunities.
At the next meeting of our group, I shared my story. They celebrated with me. Dr. Hassan told me I’d done well, that Allah was pleased. Aisha hugged me and told me I was a true sister in jihad. We prayed together, asking Allah to give us more chances to fight his battles.
The killing became easier after that.
My second victim was a contractor named Michael who came in for a routine health screening. He was in his 40s, healthy, with nothing wrong except slightly elevated cholesterol. He mentioned during his examination that he attended a charismatic church downtown. He showed me photos on his phone of his church’s recent mission trip to Indonesia.
I prescribed him medication that I told him would help with his cholesterol. Actually, I gave him drugs that would create blood clots in his system. I told him to take them daily. He trusted me completely, thanking me for taking such good care of him. Two weeks later, I heard from a colleague that he died at home from a sudden pulmonary embolism. His death was ruled natural causes. No one suspected anything.
After Michael, I killed a businessman named Peter, then a teacher named Ruth, then an elderly man named Thomas. Each death was carefully planned. Each one looked like natural causes or unfortunate complications. I varied my methods: overdoses, wrong medications, fatal drug interactions, treatments withheld until it was too late.
I stopped counting after my 12th victim. Killing became routine—just part of my job. I’d see a patient, notice signs of their Christian faith, and begin planning their death: a cross necklace, a Bible in their bag, a church bulletin, a prayer before treatment. Any sign was enough.
Our group grew. By my second year at the hospital, we had 11 members. We moved our meetings to different locations to avoid suspicion. We developed sophisticated methods, sharing techniques for killing patients in ways that would never be detected. We coached each other on how to falsify records, how to deflect questions, how to appear devastated when patients died.
I felt powerful. I felt righteous. I felt like I was doing exactly what Allah had created me to do. Every time I administered poison, every time I heard that another Christian patient had died, I whispered ‘Allahu Akbar’ in my heart. God is greatest. God is greatest. I was serving the Greatest by eliminating his enemies.
My family was proud of me, though they didn’t know the full extent of my work. My father told his congregation about his daughter, the doctor who was serving the community. My brothers told me they wished they could fight for Islam as effectively as I was. My mother would stroke my hair and tell me I was her precious daughter, her gift from Allah.
I was 29 years old. I’d been a doctor for four years. I had killed at least 40 people—probably more. I slept peacefully every night. I had no nightmares, no doubts, no guilt. I believed with every fiber of my being that I was righteous, that I was holy, that paradise awaited me.
Then Grace Okonquo was admitted to my ward…
TO BE CONTINUED IN PART 2
PART 1: “I Killed 40+ Christians as a Doctor”: Muslim Doctor’s Secret Poisoning Christian Patients.
My name is Fatima Alman. I was a murderer who wore a white coat instead of a mask.
I killed not in dark alleys but in sterile hospital rooms. I ended lives not with bullets but with medications. Not with violence but with what everyone believed was mercy and healing. And I did it all believing I was serving Allah.
There are some secrets that hospitals keep in their halls that no medical textbook will ever record. Some hands that heal by day become instruments of death by night. And sometimes the person you trust most with your life is the one planning to take it.
What I’m about to tell you changed everything I thought I knew about good and evil, about redemption and justice, about whether someone can come back from becoming a monster. Stay with me because this story will disturb you, break you, and maybe, just maybe, heal something inside you that you didn’t know was wounded.
I was 29 years old when my world collapsed. When everything I believed shattered like glass. When I discovered that the person I thought was righteous was actually the villain in every story I’d ever been part of.
I grew up in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia, in a family that most people would have called devout. From the time I was a small girl, I heard the same messages repeated like prayers: that unbelievers were a disease on this earth, that Christians and Jews were the greatest enemies of Allah, that killing them was not murder but justice, not sin but righteousness.
My father told me that paradise had levels and the highest levels were reserved for those who fought for Islam. He explained that jihad didn’t always mean carrying weapons in obvious ways. He said that sometimes the greatest warriors were those who fought from positions no one would suspect. He told me that if I became a doctor, I could serve Allah in ways that others couldn’t imagine.
I believed him. Every word.
I studied hard, earned top marks, got accepted into medical school at University Malaya. I took the Hippocratic Oath with my classmates, promising to do no harm, to treat all patients with equal care, to preserve life above all else. I spoke those words with my mouth while my heart held completely different intentions. To me, that oath applied only to Muslims. Christians and other infidels didn’t deserve the same protections. They were enemies. And in war, you didn’t heal your enemies. You eliminated them.
After I completed my residency, I started working at one of the major government hospitals in Kuala Lumpur. That’s where I met them—the others like me.
Dr. Hassan introduced me during my second week. He told me about a group of Muslim healthcare workers who met regularly, who shared a common understanding of our true purpose in the medical field. The first meeting shocked me, not because of what they were doing, but because I’d found my people—others who understood.
There were six of us initially: three doctors, two nurses, and a pharmacist. We met in Dr. Hassan’s apartment once a month. We shared meals, prayed together, and then we talked about our work.
Dr. Hassan opened that first meeting by asking each person to share their recent victories. I listened as a nurse named Aisha described how she’d deliberately given wrong medication to a Christian patient recovering from surgery. She told us how the patient had developed complications and died within 48 hours. She smiled as she said this, and everyone else nodded with approval.
A doctor named Kareem shared how he’d misdiagnosed a Christian businessman, sending him home with painkillers when the man actually had appendicitis. The man died from a ruptured appendix three days later.
They went around the circle sharing stories of Christians who died under their care. Wrong medications, deliberate overdoses, treatments withheld, diagnostic errors that weren’t errors at all. Each story ended the same way—with death—and with the group celebrating another victory for Islam.
When it came to my turn, I felt embarrassed that I had nothing to share yet. But Dr. Hassan placed his hand on my shoulder and told me not to worry. He said that Allah had brought me to them for a purpose, and soon I would have my own victories to report.
He explained that what we were doing was true jihad, that we were fighting on the front lines of a war most Muslims didn’t even know was happening. He reminded us that the Prophet himself had commanded believers to fight against unbelievers, and that our method was simply more sophisticated than previous generations.
I went home that night feeling something I hadn’t felt in years. Purpose. I had found my calling. I would be a warrior for Islam, and no one would ever suspect the young female doctor with a kind smile and gentle hands.
My first victim came two weeks later.
Her name was Sarah Tan. She was a 34-year-old marketing executive at a multinational company. She’d come in for a routine gallbladder surgery—something we performed dozens of times each month without complications.
She was Christian. I saw the small cross necklace she wore. I heard her thank Jesus when I told her the procedure would be straightforward. That cross made my decision easy.
After her surgery, I was assigned to manage her post-operative care. Everything had gone smoothly during the procedure. She should have recovered normally and gone home within three days. But I adjusted her medication dosage, increasing her pain medication to levels that I knew would suppress her respiratory system. I did it gradually over the course of 18 hours so it would look like a natural complication.
I was in the room when she died. I watched her oxygen levels drop, watched her breathing become shallow, watched the monitor flatline. The attending physician rushed in, tried to resuscitate her, but it was too late. He turned to me with confusion in his eyes and asked what had happened. I told him I didn’t know, that she’d seemed fine, that perhaps she’d had an undetected underlying condition.
Her husband arrived an hour later. He collapsed when we told him his wife was gone. He kept asking how this could happen, saying she’d only come in for a simple procedure, saying she’d texted him that morning telling him she felt fine. I stood there in my white coat, my face arranged in professional sympathy, and told him that sometimes complications arose that no one could predict. I told him we’d done everything we could.
I felt no guilt. None at all. Instead, I felt satisfaction. I’d struck a blow for Islam. I’d removed one more Christian from the earth.
That night, I performed my prayers with extra devotion. I thanked Allah for allowing me to serve him. I asked for more opportunities.
At the next meeting of our group, I shared my story. They celebrated with me. Dr. Hassan told me I’d done well, that Allah was pleased. Aisha hugged me and told me I was a true sister in jihad. We prayed together, asking Allah to give us more chances to fight his battles.
The killing became easier after that.
My second victim was a contractor named Michael who came in for a routine health screening. He was in his 40s, healthy, with nothing wrong except slightly elevated cholesterol. He mentioned during his examination that he attended a charismatic church downtown. He showed me photos on his phone of his church’s recent mission trip to Indonesia.
I prescribed him medication that I told him would help with his cholesterol. Actually, I gave him drugs that would create blood clots in his system. I told him to take them daily. He trusted me completely, thanking me for taking such good care of him. Two weeks later, I heard from a colleague that he died at home from a sudden pulmonary embolism. His death was ruled natural causes. No one suspected anything.
After Michael, I killed a businessman named Peter, then a teacher named Ruth, then an elderly man named Thomas. Each death was carefully planned. Each one looked like natural causes or unfortunate complications. I varied my methods: overdoses, wrong medications, fatal drug interactions, treatments withheld until it was too late.
I stopped counting after my 12th victim. Killing became routine—just part of my job. I’d see a patient, notice signs of their Christian faith, and begin planning their death: a cross necklace, a Bible in their bag, a church bulletin, a prayer before treatment. Any sign was enough.
Our group grew. By my second year at the hospital, we had 11 members. We moved our meetings to different locations to avoid suspicion. We developed sophisticated methods, sharing techniques for killing patients in ways that would never be detected. We coached each other on how to falsify records, how to deflect questions, how to appear devastated when patients died.
I felt powerful. I felt righteous. I felt like I was doing exactly what Allah had created me to do. Every time I administered poison, every time I heard that another Christian patient had died, I whispered ‘Allahu Akbar’ in my heart. God is greatest. God is greatest. I was serving the Greatest by eliminating his enemies.
My family was proud of me, though they didn’t know the full extent of my work. My father told his congregation about his daughter, the doctor who was serving the community. My brothers told me they wished they could fight for Islam as effectively as I was. My mother would stroke my hair and tell me I was her precious daughter, her gift from Allah.
I was 29 years old. I’d been a doctor for four years. I had killed at least 40 people—probably more. I slept peacefully every night. I had no nightmares, no doubts, no guilt. I believed with every fiber of my being that I was righteous, that I was holy, that paradise awaited me.
Then Grace Okonquo was admitted to my ward…
TO BE CONTINUED IN PART 2
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