my last annual training in 2024. We were in the woods of Ft.Dix. My mind was restless with doubt anxiety fear and remorse. it was 3 am when I finally rolled out of my bunk. my earlier conversations with the chaplain rumbling around. I head a voice "Stop and ask". In that moment I bowed my head and clamped my hands in prayer. "Heavenly Father, I cant do this anymore, Im tired and hurting, I'm sorry. I dropped my earthly tools, I close my eyes and steady my feet. Holy spirit fill me. guide my feet to GOD's path. Guide my senses hands, ears and eyes to what GOD tells me is true. please Lord I beg you bring peace to my restless mind. please Lord I can't do this anymore. in word name, Amen." That next morning the sky and my mind were clear and peaceful. the journey since has been worth every step.