Had a disturbing dream last night, and woke up ill. I saw maggots crawling under my skin, and squirming strings of what seemed like crabs coming out of my throat..,.. But I already interpreted. Power in words. Let me learn lord what words can have meaning. Please let me learn from you God the power of what words can apply joy. Let my stomach issues please settle as I gently prepare for tomorrow, a trip that has already been attempted to be stopped by the enemy multiple times.

The question is, is that I do admit I do need to take a breather, a rest, and recovery, but it would break the heart of my pastor, who went as far as spending hundreds of dollars to make sure that I go. So God, please pave the way and recover me so I can go, so I can join you. So I can talk with you, pray with you, be with you. Let me recover please so I can better do your will, and enjoy the smiles and the laughter. God I look for you, I beg for you. Please God, pave the way.

And please. Above all, please hold me close and let me know you are there. The last several days have been pedal to the metal, I have to allow myself to know that I can rest. I need to rest in you.